I was reading Tracy’s blog where she brought up a good point about being out with friends and them not supporting her the way she needed it. I’ve experienced this before; you are out with friends, they expect you to eat as they eat and drink as you drink. Well, we all know what a night like that can do to our weightloss efforts.

I think though when friends try to get you to drink with them or eat what they are eating; that they aren’t trying to hurt your efforts, but instead just think you look fine the way you are and they probably feel like you are denying yourselves a good time.

It’s hard though, do you say something and risk offending your friends? Do you give in to their pressure? I wouldn’t do either unless it got overwhelming. I typically just say no thanks, I’m fine. I haven’t yet had to say something to a friend, but what do you do when things like that happen?

I was just sitting here, looking at my belly and thinking.. I wish there was an easy way. I know I’m not alone in this When we want to get healthy we want results fast, but we all KNOW, that the most effective way to maintain weight loss is to lose it slowly. but COME ON PEOPLE. Don’t the weight loss gods know that I’m impatient? I want to know all the tricks people have used to help and if there are any shortcuts… spill em!

I’ve been reading alot about hypnosis lately and have even considered that which is HUGE for me. I’m just tired and I think I just need some motivation. I’m at the point where I’ve lost about half the weight I want to lose and I’m becoming happier with my body and my health. I can run and exercise like i used to. I am a lot stronger, my body is more defined, and I just feel better about myself. I just now need to make sure i don’t get too comfortable in this skin and I persist to go all the way. I’m sure this is a feeling plenty of you have felt so I would love to hear any advice!

well, I wanted to lose 10 pounds in just a couple weeks time. I did not make that goal.. *sigh*… but I did lose 5 pounds and I looked fabulous! It’s fun to get all dressed up and feel pretty. It’s been a long time since I’ve had the opportunity to dress up and it was cool because of the weight I’ve lost. I still have more to go, but over the past few months I’m doing well.

I will try to get some pics up soon. I have some, but my battery has since died and I need to find the charger in order to pull them off.

Now, I need to figure out my next goal. The past couple of weeks have been extremely busy and I expect the next two to be just as busy as only 8 more days until christmas.. eek..

So…. My november ends without me losing ANY weight. Apparently I really pigged out over my long weekend and gained back everything I lost. Herein lies the problem.

On December 16, I have this fancy schmancy holiday “ball” to attend where everyone will be dressed in their fancy schmancy gowns and I have one for myself. I bought it last month and I bought it one size too small (intentionally). The good news is that I can squeeze into it… the bad news is, it is tight as hell and doesn’t look as good as it should. I need to lose 10 pounds in about 17 days. That will be the hard part especially because I am set to do my holiday baking soon and let me tell you a little secret.. i LOVE christmas cookies. I absolutely love to make them and then eat them (picture cookie monster eating his cookies with crumbs flying everywhere.) So, i’m thinking that maybe I can put off Christmas baking until the Sunday after (the 17th). At least I am hoping I can.

Time to buck up and really double my workout efforts and watch my intake. I went to the grocer st ore yesterday and loaded up on water, diet soda, and fruit.

This is going to suck but I look forward to giving you my report! Wish me luck

Happy thanksgiving to my friends in the states. I hope everyone has been doing well. This month has been a pretty decent one overall. Remember that bake sale I was going to have? Well I did and with donated baked goods from others, we were able to raise $500 for a worth cause. So, that is pretty cool.

Yesterday was thanksgiving and I think I gained back the 5 pounds I lost this month. I suppose that happens though when you eat a ton of food

I am really excited that it is Christmas time. I love Christmas and I’m flat broke. But I just love the time of the year. I love the cold weather. I love spending time with loved ones, I just love it

Long weekends are so nice. This past weekend was a long weekend in the states because of Veteran’s Day. I realize not all places get it off, so I’m sorry for those that don’t; but I do and I took advantage of it dammit.

Not too much really happened this weekend. We went over to a friends house and just hung out. We got there after everyone finished eating so there were 4 hot wings left. Yes… 4. Who can eat just 4? Those things are so damn good and that’s all we get. Luckily the husband doesn’t eat hot wings so I got them all. *grin*

Then I don’t think I left the house all weekend after that. Wait, i did to go run errands on Saturday, but otherwise I was a homebody and I quite enjoyed myself. It’s always nice to not have something to do and enjoy your surroundings and really appreciate the people you are with. I think sometimes it’s easy to take things for granted and just sitting around and thinking about life and everything that comes with it can be pretty therapeutic…even with all the emotions and ups and downs.

So, now that i’m not making anysense, perhaps I will stop. Hopefully this week is very productive for me. I have the gym in my schedule for tomorrow so that will be a good start of the day. Other than that, I will try to get some work done!

Oh.. and the baking binge I’ve been on will come to good use soon. I’m going to have a bake sale and donate the money. Might as well make some good use out of my sanity.

Hope you all have a great week.

In my attempt to see the positives in my life, i must say that something good did come out of October… I lost 3 more pounds. October was just a very rough month for me; filled with change, big decisions, and loss. The two don’t go well together I’m afraid. I am looking forward to getting on with November as it can’t be worse I’m sure.

But anyway, back to seeing the good in all of this …

I did lose three more pounds. That’s not quite as good as the previous month, but I’ll take it! I think I’m going to switch up my exercise routine this month and challenge myself a bit more. I seem to be in decent shape even if I wear a wide load sign when I run. I don’t have a problem with endurance and I’m afraid I can’t attribute that to all of the sex i’m NOT having. Oh yes, back to good things. 3 pounds. 3 pounds. 3 pounds.

Hope everyone is doing well out there! I finally got a chance to catch up on my blog readings from the past two weeks. It was nice to see how everyone is doing.

About a week ago, I lost someone I had grown to love and since then I’ve been cooking and cleaning like a mad woman. My family has been well fed this past week. i’ve made cakes and breads and muffins and every morning I make an elaborate breakfast and I’ve been packing my son’s lunch for school instead of him using his “hot lunch” ticket. For dinner I spend almost 2 hours making a big meal.

I guess this is my way of greiving. Luckily though, I’ve been spending so much time cooking and cleaning that I really don’t want to eat everything. It’s interesting how everyone deals with things differently. I’ve run out of room in my kitchen though so hopefully this new obsession of mine ends soon.

No, no.. I’m not giving up sex. It would be a cold day in hell before I do that. I have a soda that I love to drink and i didn’t want to give it up at all. I’ve referred to this soda as liquid sex… it is so yummy but it is by far one of the worst sodas you could drink. It’s loaded with more soda than others and the caffeine is off the chart! It is my beloved Mountain Dew.

I gave it up the day I blogged about my breakfast of Mountain dew and Cheetos. I didn’t write about it because I wasn’t sure how long I would be able to give it up. I usually have 1 or 2 cans every morning and I really feel like I need it much like coffee drinkers need their coffee in the morning. It has actually been tough and I find myself longing for a mountain dew. It’s a fucking soda and I’m wanting it like I want to get laid….wtf is wrong with me?

I feel like I’ve broken up with a love that I’m not ready to give up!

I love you mountain Dew.. and I’m sorry.

I know we all give up things we like when we try to lose weight… but what are some things people have given up that has been EXTREMELY hard on them.. something they’ve had an emotional or physical (NO..not that you sickos) affair with?

The other night I had the most realistic dream and it still haunts me in fact. When i was thin, I used to practice yoga regularly and go to classes alot. Well, in my dream, I was fat and I decided to go to a yoga class. Upon entering, the instructor redircted me to the back of the class along the wall and said, “large asses in the rear”. I noticed that my neighbors were a little on the heavy side too. I didn’t say anything for some reason and just went to the back. A couple more chubby girls came in after me and they were also pointed to the back.

That is really the extent of that dream, but oh how it fucked up my head when i woke up. I know how it made me feel and i sat there and analyzed why I felt that way. It made me feel like shit, but it’s all based on my subconscience feeling that because I’m fat I shouldn’t be doing yoga. Yoga is for health people and I’m not quite there yet.

Earlier in the day before I had that dream, i read someone’s blog about doing new exercises and someone made a comment that she too would pick up running when she slimmed down a bit. I remember thinking.. I’m glad I don’t have any shame. I will get outside in spandex and a tanktop with my ass jiggling all around for a good run. But, yoga didn’t even enter my mind–until i went to bed. When I woke I realized that I do have the same thoughts as the girl who wasn’t ready to run yet.. but for me it was yoga. I wasn’t ready to go into a yoga class yet for fear of looking like a total fat ass in the company of all of these strong and healthy people