So…. My november ends without me losing ANY weight. Apparently I really pigged out over my long weekend and gained back everything I lost. Herein lies the problem.

On December 16, I have this fancy schmancy holiday “ball” to attend where everyone will be dressed in their fancy schmancy gowns and I have one for myself. I bought it last month and I bought it one size too small (intentionally). The good news is that I can squeeze into it… the bad news is, it is tight as hell and doesn’t look as good as it should. I need to lose 10 pounds in about 17 days. That will be the hard part especially because I am set to do my holiday baking soon and let me tell you a little secret.. i LOVE christmas cookies. I absolutely love to make them and then eat them (picture cookie monster eating his cookies with crumbs flying everywhere.) So, i’m thinking that maybe I can put off Christmas baking until the Sunday after (the 17th). At least I am hoping I can.

Time to buck up and really double my workout efforts and watch my intake. I went to the grocer st ore yesterday and loaded up on water, diet soda, and fruit.

This is going to suck but I look forward to giving you my report! Wish me luck

Happy thanksgiving to my friends in the states. I hope everyone has been doing well. This month has been a pretty decent one overall. Remember that bake sale I was going to have? Well I did and with donated baked goods from others, we were able to raise $500 for a worth cause. So, that is pretty cool.

Yesterday was thanksgiving and I think I gained back the 5 pounds I lost this month. I suppose that happens though when you eat a ton of food

I am really excited that it is Christmas time. I love Christmas and I’m flat broke. But I just love the time of the year. I love the cold weather. I love spending time with loved ones, I just love it

Yes people, this is what is landing people on my site. People are googling for terms like:

“Fat Sexy Girl”
“Fat Ass Girl”

Let me tell you.. those are the kind of people I was trying to attract when I started this blog! I wonder if they are disappointed when they get here!

Something not many people think about, much less talk about, is that it is a pain in the rear to groom yourself properly when you’re fat! I’m not talking about tweezing the brows or poofing out the hair.. I’m talking about grooming your nether regions.

So, I’m standing in the shower and I’m looking down. Hi Toes. i still see you. Hi gut… yes, I still see you too unfortunately. But where is my friend the vagina? where oh where? Oh yes, It’s hiding behind my belly. Come out come out wherever you are; you need a haircut.

I still haven’t figured out the easiest way to do this and my grooming practices change based on how long I go between bushcuts. If It’s been a while, I need to first start with the clippers and trim the area. Well how do i get there very easily when im a little pudgy down there. I can’t just look down. So I either have to lean over, stand in front of a mirror or lie down on my bed with my legs spread . There is only one reason I should be in that position dammit… and it shouldn’t be because I’m fat and I need to give my bush a good trim. Once its all manageable, then i need to get in the shower. Since I can’t see my little friend very easily, I grab my razor and attack it like a blind person. When I was thin i used to have the strip or whatever little thing i wanted. But since I can’t see it very well, I opt to take it all off that way I can’t mess up. I just move my hand around, searching for hair and as I stumble across it I eliminate it. BE GONE!

So yeah.. that’s something that sucks about being fat!

This week my letter is D. As I think of D, so many words come to my mind, so I think it will be tricky to find the ones that really define me.

• Dork - I’m such a dork…. a HUGE dork in fact (no pun intended there :p). I love to have fun and just be a goofball. I’m afraid I will be one of those parents who always embarrass their children . At least that is what i will strive to be!
• Demanding - I am extremely demanding of myself. I hold myself to a standard that I believe is sometimes unattainable. This makes it very easy to disappoint myself I’m afraid.
• Distant - When I have a rough day or something is bothering me, I tend to just shut out people and I get very distant.
• Delicious - Does this REALLY need an explanation
• Disappointed - I am quite disappointed with myself in so many ways. I like to think I’m a strong woman who can be very disciplined but sometimes I set goals for myself and I just CAN’T keep them no matter what I do.
• Deliberate -

I typically don’t do things without a reason. I think things through before I act for the most part.

• Dutiful - I posess a great sense of duty and have no problem fulfilling obligations. I won’t commit to something unless I know i will follow-through.
• Delightful - I think I’m just a bowl full of roses. Can you smell them
• Direct - You won’t get fluff or pretty pictures with me. I will tell it like I see it.

This past week I’ve been getting better about my exercise, but I’m still not where I want to be. I expect to step it up tomorrow though. I didn’t take many opportunities for cardio last week. I ran twice and used the elliptical machine once. I tried to do my pushups and situps daily, but that didn’t happen. I was thinking of adding an exercise journal on the site here so I can update it daily and really take notice of how I’m doing. Tomorrow morning I will do my measurements for the week and let everyone know. Pound-wise things are about the same. Lost almost a pound but not quite so I don’t really count it.

I had a pretty good weekend. I spent most of it away from the computer and with my family. It was pretty relaxing. Tomorrow its back to the grindstone, I’m afraid. I have been enjoying the World Cup. Why does it have to only be on every 4 years. I think yearly would be awesome. Who do I call about that?

Hello? yes, this is Fat Girl. It really helps my days go by when I get to watch a bunch of good looking men sweat and play their asses off in a good game of soccer (football for you non-US types). Would you mind making this event yearly please? ok, wonderful. I’ll send candy.

I really wanted to put a face to Fat Girl, so I talked to some friends who talked to other friends and wa lah! Now I’ve got this really cool illustration to represent Fat Girl up in the header. I really like her. I wanted her to be pretty and sexy and sassy. So often if you’re fat you feel like you cant be pretty or sexy and that is also the image a lot of society puts on us fat girls. Well, I say we CAN be beautiful and sexy. Hopefully Fat Girl represents that well enough.

Anyway, I hope everyone likes Fat Girl. I love her

Continuing the commitment I made back here, I need to tr to come up with 10 words that start with C that can describe me.

Clever - I like to think I’m pretty damn funny. I’m not the loud, outgoing type that can walk into a room and be the life of the party. I am pretty quiet but when I talk, I quite often shut everyone up. I can be quite clever.

Coy - I can be quite shy and reserved. I’m usually very quiet in a lot of social situations.

Critical - I’m extremely critical of myself. Overly-critical I’d say. Sigh…..

Creative - Think outside of the box? I certainly do!

Cautious - If i want a new car, for example, I will research for months, sometimes years, before I buy. I make sure I do all of my research and only then will I make a purchase.

Caring - I love to love. I have so much love and affection to give–an infinite amount!

Cheerful - In general I’m a happy person.

Charismatic - When I work I am very charismatic. I am able to motivate and encourage the people that work with me or for me.

Capable - I am very capable in a lot of areas in my life.

Cool - I’m one cool chick!