I love to listen to music and there is this song I’ve always identified with whether I’ve been fat or thin. It is called Beautiful by the band Joydrop. It is about 6 years old or so, but for me it’s a timeless song. Do you have any songs you identify with? Feel free to click on the link above to listen to it. Here are the lyrics:

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
OH THE THINGS I WOULD DO
THOSE NOT SO BLESSED WOULD BE CRYING OUT MURDER
AND I’D JUST LAUGH AND GET AWAY WITH IT TOO
LIKE YOU DO

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
I WOULD NEVER BE AT FAULT
I’D WALK IN THE RAIN BETWEEN RAIN THE DROPS
BRINGING TRAFFIC TO A HALT

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE
THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE
‘CAUSE I’M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
I’D BE QUICK TO ASSUME
THEY’D DO ANYTHING TO PLEASE ME WHY NOT
I SEE THEIR REACTION WHEN YOU WALK INTO THE ROOM

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE
THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE
‘CAUSE I’M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
LIKE ME
LIKE ME

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU I’D HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS
ALL FIGHTING FOR MY TIME TO BE NEXT IN LINE
SO IF I HURT ONE I WOULDN’T HAVE TO MAKE AMENDS

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE
THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE
‘CAUSE I’M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME
IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

Well, it was back to the gym for me today. It had been couple of months since i’ve been back but now that I’m not chasing little children around during the day, I don’t have any excuse NOT to go. I only did the elliptical machine, but as I left I went for a short run to stretch those muscles. It felt great. I think I’ll go back tomorrow.

Yes, I’m a dirty girl. No, I’m not talking about being a sexually depraved person (that’s an entirely different post)… I’m talking cleanliness here. I realize you are all probably about to vomit in your mouths, but let me continue please .

I think this has something to do with being able to work at home, but basically, I only shower every other day or so. I wonder if I’m alone in this. I’m sure those who work out of the home shower everyday, but do you do it on weekends as well?

I try and work out everyday and when I don’t have a full hour to devote to it, I will do a little in the morning, a little, in the afternoon, a little wherever I can fit in the time basically. Well, my rationale goes something like this:

I wake up… why should I shower when I’m about to work out. So after my workout when I’m able to rest, why don’t I shower then? Well, why get clean when I’d like to work out some more later if I get the time. This is a continuous cycle I’m afraid and yes, with this rationale I could really never shower, couldn’t I? I just shaved my legs the other day after a month of not. Today is Monday and I haven’t showered since Saturday. Will I shower today.. probably. But if I don’t need to do anything or see anyone, why should I shower after my workout tomorrow morning. I can just save a little extra water and shower on Wednesday.

Also, if I’m all clean and smelling delicious.. I don’t want to work out b/c I don’t want to get stinky. My head’s all jacked up

Okay.. proceed to vomit. Have a nice day.

I am finally settled down and able to get back to life as normal. I have been busy travelling and have been without a reliable Internet connection. Life is good overall but has been so hectic that I am excited for it to be boring. I’ve got lots of pictures of statues and catherals and things like that to put up!

In my last post I mentioned I had lost 10 pounds last month and lost 5 more this month. How I did it was not the best way. Stress will do amazing things for your weight I’m afraid. I was just extremely busy and had so much on my mind that I didn’t eat much and when I ate, I ate like crap which is why I have no idea how I lost weight. Now though things are a little calmer and I know the weight loss will slow down but i really don’t mind as I’d rather by fat than always stressed like I was!

On a positive side, I am running again which is a great feeling. My son just got into school last week so I will also be able to start going to the gym after I drop him off. Now, it’s time for me to catch up on all my friends blogs! I’ve missed everyone and am glad to be back!

Well, this past month has been pretty good for me weight-wise. I lost 10 pounds and now my pants are hanging off of me. I mean.. hanging. My butt looks completely undesirable in them because the pants just sag off. Not an entirely bad position to be in. I think I need to get some new pants.