Day 1
May 24th, 2006I woke this morning, I wondered if me starting this site last night was just a dream; apparently not! It’s already been a rough morning. I tried to reach out to someone, but they weren’t there, and that just caused me to just breakdown in tears. Told you my mind is a mess. Love will do that to you unfortunately. With the good comes the bad I guess.
So, how do you pick yourself up when something like this happens. When you’re sad, y ou typically want to comfort yourself and feel better. Sometimes food does this for me as it does for a lot of people. At that moment in time you are just looking for anything to make you feel a little better. So you pick something up that tastes good. Requires very little effort and gives immediate satisfaction. I can’t do that this time though. Not anymore, right? That’s what I’m hoping at least.
Instead, I’m trying to write this and perhaps I’ll go do some sit ups to help distract myself. I need to get to work actually, it just seems hard right now when my mind is consumed with other things. Today will be a long day I’m afraid. I’ll get through it and luckily, tomorrow will be a new day.
Oh FG - that is so tough. I hope you managed to find parts of today to smile about. I know you mentioned that you are not ‘aiming’ for a particular weight or size, just to get healthier and fitter (which is a fantastic approach by the way) but have you thought how you are going to go about doing it? Perhaps by making a morning plan to do when you first get out of bed will help you to focus on something you want to do and less on someone you don’t really want to rely on. *hugs*
Comment by Margaret (M) — May 24, 2006 @ 6:04 pm
Thanks margaret. I am in the planning stages still and I need to figure out what will be best for me. I imagine it will be a lot of trial and error and I will just have to figure out what works best for me. I have tried loads of diets and different things and they just don’t work for me. The only thing that seems to work for me is when I decide I want to do something, I do it. I always succeed at anything I want. I want to get healthy. I’m an outdoorsy person. I love anything outside. I just need to figure out whats holding me back. I’m hoping by writing this, it will help me uncover it. Thanks for stoppying by and reading.
Comment by fat girl — May 24, 2006 @ 10:06 pm
Hey FG. Glad you want to play. Little things like this are a great way to learn about someone else and what makes them tick. It’s also a lot of fun.
Your letter is ‘A’
Have a great day and I’ll be checking back to see what ‘A’ things you are made of
Comment by Margaret (M) — May 24, 2006 @ 10:19 pm
Oh a vowel.. that will br tricky. I will probably need my dictionary.
Comment by fat girl — May 25, 2006 @ 8:05 am